A Letter To My 6 Month Old

Dear Peanut,

It has been 6 months since you took your first breath - and took mine away. I loved you since before you were born, before you were even made. I longed for you for years, but those are now only a distant memory. I cannot clearly remember my life without you in it. I am in awe of you. A perfect little girl. Your father and I would stare at you sometimes and say: "We have made this ". We are aware and thankful that you have been given to us. That we are entrusted to love you, raise you, teach you and help you to become the greatest person that you are capable of.

There are so many things that I wish I could save little pieces of to always treasure. Everybody agreed that you had the most beautiful newborn cry. We did not hear it a lot but it melted our hearts. Now you have a big baby cry. How your fingers and toes were once all curled up and stiff, now you take things from me and hold them, your toes wriggles when daddy tickles you. How I was able to hold you sleeping in my one arm, now I need both and even that is an art. All the clothes and cute outfits that I needed to pack away because you grew out of them. How you went from laying to sitting, and soon will be crawling, walking and running.

You are such a cute little character. Smiling the biggest gummy smiles, squinting your eyes and peeking through your beautiful long lashes. "Talking" and entertaining us, blowing raspberries and being funny. Flapping your arms and legs up and down - making "snow angels" on the bed. Staring at pretty colours with your mouth wide open in amazement.

You are for the most part a happy, content little girl. You do get fussy after a long day and will cry while I walk and rock you until my back feels like breaking. But you will eventually fall asleep on my shoulder, your breath in my neck. I will not pass up the feeling of you sleeping in my arms for anything in the world.

I love the way you adore your dad and that you show me what a wonderful father he is. Your face lights up when you see him and you always responds to the sound of his voice. He makes you giggle without much effort and he is so proud of you. He also takes great care of you, feeding, changing nappies, bathing and dressing you. I love him even more for loving you so much.

I am so glad that I am your mother. That I can share your life and get to know the special little soul that you are. That I can see you grow and develop. That I get to love you a little more every day - if that is at all possible. I promise that I will always do the best I can and be the mother that you deserve.

Love you always

Mommy

Thoughtful Tuesday

Motherhood has taught me that your heart can be very proud and break a little bit - all at the same time. 

I look at every new little thing that our baby girl is accomplishing and while feeling so proud of her, my heart breaks at the fact that she past a stage and is growing up. Only four and a half months old and I've already "lost" my newborn baby. I can now only treasure and remember past moments as she develops and grows. I will make a mental note to never wish the time away and live consciously every day.

12 weeks old

Our precious little princess is 12 weeks old today. Still not getting any time to start blogging actively again, but at least I can let you have a peek at how beautiful she is :-)

Two Months Already!

Wow, cannot believe that our baby girl turned 2 months old on the 12th already. Guess time flies when you are having fun, changing diapers and feeding the baby!

It has been a wonderful and challenging 2 months. Newborn babies are very new to us so we had (have) a lot to learn. Luckily my doula are always available to give advise and check up on us. On the other hand my husband has been and is the rock in my world. When discharged from hospital I was still very sore and stiff and he just took over everything. I basically just fed the baby. He looked after everything else, the house, animals, groceries, me and little Peanut.

And now 2 months down the line we are establishing a bit of a routine and are getting the hang of things. We love and adore this little girl of ours. She is what I would think an easy baby. Cries only when really necessary, sleeps well at night and lately gives the most beautiful smiles. She does however not sleep during the day. She will take little power-naps. This got so rough on me that I've asked a friend to play nanny and come and look after the baby for 3 hours in the morning in order for me to get a couple of things done.

Breastfeeding did not work out entirely as expected. The plan was to try and breastfeed exclusively for the first 6 months. Peanut did however not gain nearly enough weight and by week 5 and trying every trick in the book we called it a day and started to supplement with formula. That turned our hungry little munchkin into a not so completely hungry one and she gained weight beautifully.

The grandmothers also got to visit as we baptised her on the 26th of October. She was such a good little girl and the grandmas are very in love with her.

I look at this little person sometimes and still cannot believe that she is real. She is so worth the wait. My heart just wants to explode with love.

I will try to post more updates, but at the moment I am having my hands full of beautylicious little baby bums!